merdeka.

31 ogos 2006.
49 years since 1957.

selamat hari merdeka/happy independence day/jour d'indépendance heureux.

bahasa melayu/english/french.
hmm...

suasane pesta konvo yg full with ppl...
pic taken by journalist photographer yg tak professional.. haha ; p

agak happening sambutan kat utm. tak ingat b4 ni pernah join ke tak sambutan hr kemerdekaan kat utm. tp rasenye mcm first time join mlm tadi. rasenye sebelum2 ni dok bilik je... melahu atau tedo. kalo kat kl, tgk fireworks dr umah je. pasal umah dekat dengan klcc. bukan sebelah klcc la hehe.

pesta konvo absolutely full dgn students & outsiders. hujan renyai2 tatkala menapak dr k9 dgn fieha, lynn & liza ke pesta konvo. mase tu 2130 pm.. sejuk gak... grrr! hujan dr petang sampai ke malam. but i like the weather. cool. fresh. tapi lecak sket r. jalan2 smpai ke ktc. lynn withdraw duit from ATM. ramai manusia tgh q kat ATM. so tunggu r jap. borak dgn fieha & liza. about 10 minutes, we continued our journey to pesta konvo. hu2! dr jauh, kedengaran ade org tgh menyanyi. tp tak sedap pon. student kot yg nyanyi. watsoever. ni yg malas nk g sbb usually mesti ade nyanyi2. tah ape2. takde mende lain. buhsan gak r.

so sampai je tggu r odah & the geng kat khemah VIP. dpt gak r pijak carpet kuning yg takde ape2 makna tu. ha2! carpet je pon. hmm... mane dorg ni.. sambil tunggu sambil tgk aksi budak2 taekwando (ejaan ni betul ke?). wpun tak nampak org2 yg beraksi, tp nampak gak r kepingan plywood (kot), takpon kayu ape tah melayang ke atas hasil sepakan/tumbukan 3 hits combo budak2 taekwando tu... aksi bese je... buhsan.. since primary dulu till now bende same je... watever. heheh, emotionless. sorry guys! ; p

Odah called. sy called balik. Odah called. begitu juga sy. semuanye utk mendapatkan coordinate yg jelas ttg kedudukan masing2. last2, ktorg gak yg kene locate them. so g r cari... alhamdulillah dpt gak r. ceh, busy beli kain rupenye. Tie byk gler beli. but for the whole family. bagus r Tie. jumpe dgn asmah & saadah sekali. huhuuu sgt rindu dgn saad yg chomel. heheh. adei, lame gak r tgk dorg beli/pilih kain. byk sgt kan kain2 kat situ. murah gak. teringin nk beli but maybe beli kat kl je. senang sket. lagipon sedar, duit dlm purse, rm 10 je... lupe nk kuar duit kat bcb. so tgk je r budak2 ni shopping. tak kesah.

akhirnye, lepas sumeorg bz dgn shopping, yg still sticked together - me, asmah, saad. dh terkedepan jauh. saje je nk jejalan. malas nk tggu budak2 ni. sambil jalan2 sambil berborak sambil melihat keadaan sekeliling. berjalan, melihat, mentafsir. yup, maybe tu ape yg i did last nite! tgk pelbg spesis manusia yg dikategorikan as mahasiswa. hmm, byk couple gak. but, tu bende yg dh dianggap normal oleh org2 Islam di mlysia. susah nk ubah persepsi mcm ni. kene ade kesedaran & penghayatan ilmu agama in each of us. then, baru boleh ubah. nama je Islam, tak gune gak kan if we don't obey the words of Allah?

tetibe tringat mase g Halaqah last week (discussion on Lina Joy case) kat umah alumni. yg bg ceramah tu ex-student utm sendiri. sorang engineer sorang lagi ape tah. lupe. tringat r ayat salah seorg penceramah tu.

"Aqidah tak boleh diwarisi. Kite sendiri kene cari. Kite kene belajar dan amalkan."

more or less camtu r penceramah tu ckp. mmg betul. aqidah, iman mane boleh diwarisi. doesn't means ur parents kuat agama, iman mantap & anak2 pon same kuat imannye. nope. sumenye dtg dr diri sendiri. kalo parents dh bg didikan agama yg cukup, tak semestinye anak tu akan mantap imannye. sbbnye, anak tu kena trus belajar mcm mane nk tingkatkan iman n amalkan. carilah ilmu dan luaskan minda. akal dh ade. so just cari n think. kene istiqamah. ikhlas. dgn ilmulah kite tau bezakan which is wrong n which is right. kalo kite beragama Islam, jadilah org Islam yg betul2 Islam. bukan kite menjadi org Islam yg liberal. kirenye sume halal je. sbb time bile pulak nanti kite nk jd org Islam yg betul2 Islam? ajal bile2 je. i admit sy pon byk kelemahan & jealous gak r tgk member2 lain yg bukan takat mantap imannya but siap boleh quote quran & sunnah bile berhujah. perghh. but tak kesah la, tu atas kemampuan masing2. yg penting kene tau & amalkan. kalo tak, sia2 je Allah jadikan kite lahir dr keluarga muslim. so be thankful to HIM! : )

hmm... erkk mane tadi eh psl pesta convo? he2. owh ok2. basically, takde pape sgt nk crite. just pesta konvo byk gerai r. u can get all kind of things. cheap. mcm2 r. so dh penat tawaf 2 kali rasenye, ktorg pon sampai ke final destination. main khemah, langsir putih kuning, VVIP pun ade. layan jap sketsa tp tajuk tatau la pulak. tapi budak2 palapes berlakon. psl perjuangan hero mempertahankan Tanah Melayu. pastu syahid and kekasih dia jd single mingle.. he2! sempoi je jln critenyer. mcm sketsa mase skolah dulu2 r... bese je. but best sbb palapes berlakon. siap dgn senjata sume. ok r. pastu ade akustika. pastu ape tah lagi. fikiran melayang. budak2 ni sebok dgn video cam. hehe. kakak Odah nyer. tumpang sekaki gak r. ; p

dh nk dekat jam 12 pm. so masing2 get ready wif bendera yg small size tu. dpt free je. ingat b4 dtg td nk pinjam jap bendera kat k9. besar2 sume. he2. memain je. me, saad, odah, tie, asmah, erkk.. kucai pon ade. kire odah r paling excited. haha. detik itu telah tibe. lantas odah dgn bersemangat nyer melaungkan 'MERDEKA!' sbyk 7 kali bersama2 benderanye dan diikuti suara2 budak2 lain. haha sy je yg less patriotic kot. time nyanyi lagu negaraku ok lagi. but pelan je r (sbb kucai kat sblh je ni.. adei). jalur gemilang n ape tah lagu lagi... tak ingat r lyric! ; p

really sorry! so bad! but janji tau lyric lagu negaraku dh r. hmm...

settle je sesi nyanyian ade fireworks (eh lupe... nyanyi dulu ke fireworks dulu? watsoever). tapi suke gler dgn fireworks tu. cantek! perghhh. but tempat tak strategic. ade pulak palang besi (kot nama dia) yg menghalang view. tp nampak gak r. but odah r kesian terpakse record dgn palang2 besi tu masuk skali. haha. what to do.

pas abes je sume, nampak nizam n raja kat blkg. kucai yg tunjuk. (kucai, mcm la aku tak perasan nizam b4 ni he2..). so senyum je r. then, g teman budak2 ni beli makanan. lapar gak. then dpt msg raja but tak dpt nk reply. credit expired (sorry). sampai kat gerai makan, sy beli air soya je. abg2 yg jual tu kecoh gler. kata kiteorg sume dh kawen. ceh (jatuh saham aku!). heheh ; p... pastu teman saad beli pau. beli satu je lak tu. pau kaya. huhu. pastu baru balik... penat dh jln2. my pink socks were wet. kene lecak. betul gak kata raja. lecak tak best. huhu sejuk gler jari jemari kaki. cramp mase jln sbb sejuk sesangat! grrr! pastu on foot dgn budak2 ni asmah, odah, tie, saad. lynn, fieha, liza nk balik lambat sket lagi. so i joined budak2 kp. lepas lalu kp, i used short cut path sorang2. fortunately, ade gak budak2 perempuan lain yg dok k9 jln kat depan tu. doa dlm hati takde ape2 bad things berlaku.

alhamdulillah syukur... sampai k9 at last. sigh!
adei. kene lak naik tangga ke 4th floor.
as usual naik r.
the end.

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OIC.

after bace blog raja, i got new input about OIC. raja tgk MHI discussing psl OIC ni. dorg claimed OIC ni dh usaha mcm2 demi Palestine & Lubnan. cuma pihak media je tak gembar gemburkan. hmm... well, it's hard to believe. but tq to raja for the info.

this is my point of view. mmg betul maybe pihak media tak cerita ttg ape yg OIC telah dan akan lakukan. media kat mlysia ni kene ubah trend. tak sepatutnya hal artis dijadikan headline di kala pertumpahan darah hebat berlaku di ng2 Islam. tak sepatutnya kita utamakan mereka2 ini sedangkan masih byk lagi isu yg berlaku di luar ng dan di mlysia sendiri. media kena bertindak bijak dlm menyampaikan perkara sebenar. kalau kita lihat Yahoo main page cthnya. terdpt headline pd bhgn 'IN THE NEWS' ttg pergolakan di Palestine & Lebanon. everyday ade. media luar jadikan ia sbg headline. tp media kat mlysia bgmana? kalau umat Islam di mlysia sendiri tak peka & tak care psl umat Islam di negara lain. mcm mane kita semua nk unite? mcm mane nk tolong sedara seislam yg lain? fikir-fikirkanlah. verily, each of us will be accountable in the hereafter for what we've done during we live. itu psl media.

but yg sy nk tekankan di sini ialah negara2 Islam yg join OIC. ape yg sy observe la kan. they such a coward. they're afraid. they're afraid of human more than God. kita tahu ng2 yg join OIC ni mainly kaya raya. i mean Arab & Brunei for example. dorg ade sumber minyak. so knape tak gunekan kuasa yg ada kat atas minyak tu dgn memutuskan bekalan minyak ke US & sekutu2nya? knape tak putuskan utk menggunakan mata wang Arab ketika berdagang dgn US? knape mesti gunakan US dollar jual beli minyak? sedangkan yg menjualnya Arab, tapi boleh dikatakan yg mengikut sahaja adalah Arab juga. knape tak gunakan kuasa yg ade dan sumber minyak yg Allah swt kurniakan utk hentam pihak Barat? yes, kita ade limit kesabaran. but for me, it's enough!

Allah ade sebut dlm alQuran (sy tak ingat ayat mane). Allah kata kita wajib memerangi org2 kafir yg memerangi umat Islam secara keseluruhan...

cube kite revise. dh berapa lame Palestine tu berperang utk dptkan balik tanah dorg? since 1948 if i'm not mistaken. since the Cold War. it's nearly 60 years! so ape saudara2 Islam lain buat ketika umat Islam Palestine disembelih by Zionist? kita kena sentiasa beringat. kepimpinan yg betul2 berlandaskan agama dan menjadikan alQuran sbg rujukan sgt2 penting. bila kita tolak ini semua, bermakna kita menolak suruhan Allah sedangkan Allah yg menciptakan kita. Dia tahu kelemahan kita. bila kerajaan sama ada di mlysia atau ng arab atau ng2 Islam lain tak amalkan ape yg disuruh, maka inilah jadinya. Islam jadi huru hara. dlm Islam sendiri dh ajar ttg politik, bagaimana Nabi saw memerintah ng Islam yg pertama iaitu Madinah al Munawarrah. kita patut ikut ape yg Nabi buat. mcm mane Nabi bijak memerintah pd waktu itu. bukan semua yg menghuni Madinah beragama Islam. tapi Nabi cerdik, Nabi bawa mereka slow2 dan dedahkan dorg kpd Islam. Nabi buat Piagam Madinah. dlm tu ade hak2 org Islam dan bukan Islam. alhamdulillah non muslims masa tu boleh accept. semuanya atas kebijaksanaan Nabi Muhammad saw.

sekarang, sejak jatuhnya Kerajaan Uthmaniyyah pd March 1924 oleh Kamal Attaturk (go to hell with him!), umat Islam dh berpecah belah. makin senang Barat menjajah dr segi pemikiran mahupun physically. obviously, apabila ng Islam sendiri makin lemah apabila hanya mampu menunggu perjanjian damai dipersetujui dan ditandatangani oleh kuasa2 Barat. janji tinggal janji. umat Islam terus diperangi. di mana2 shj. US salahkan alQaeda psl 9/11 sekaligus mencemarkan nama baik Islam. main point nak serang Iraq & dapatkan bekalan minyak kat sana. Britain pulak kes letupan bom kat keretapi bwh tanah. the aftermath, org2 Brit sendiri mengalami Islamophobia yg semakin meningkat. maka, sampai bilakah kita sbg umat Islam akan terus tersepit?

janji Allah adalah benar. akan tiba masanya umat Islam akan kembali bangkit. kita yg takde kuasa ni, just mampu berdoa dan terus berdoa...

erkk.. dh terpanjang pulak... just share my thoughts... okla, go back to work...

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italic.

kucai was jealous with me.
just because of my status changed to italic.
hehe.
coincidence je tu kucai...
maybe computer kat lab skk tak betul.
hehe. salahkan computer.
the truth is, i didn't do anything.
but susah kucai nk caye my words.
siap suruh ajar cane nk wat status dia jd italic gak.
huhu.
but betul la. odd kan kucai?
sbb kwn2 kucai yg online, takde pulak jd italic.
just mine je.. the one & only.
for sure because i'm special & unique.
hehe.
mesti kucai takleh terima kalo bace post ni.
cool kucai cool (aku tiru ayat ko)
tehehehe.



.png di atas telah diberikan oleh kucai sendiri. (click utk besarkan)
sbb nk buktikan that i'm d only one yg weird.
status jd italic.
hehe.
watsoever la kucai. ; p

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bus.

"BILA NAIK BAS..
TENGOK TANGGA
BUKAN TENGOK DRIVER BAS"

hehe. ; p
kelakar je.
terbace kat sticker yg ditampal kat tangga bas.
logic2.
insyaAllah i'll bear in mind.

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today.

smlm g post office.
hr ni g bank. duit dh tggl rm 10.
psl byr hutang ccna 1 rm 150.
so g bank brought along my asb account book.
kat bank amek form n isi as usual.
amek no n waited for my turn.
B017 Counter 3. yess!
an indian guy served me.
i looked at his name card.
philip. owh.
after finishing key-in my data.
he gave me the money n my asb form to his boss (kot).
(yg dok blkg dorg tu)
"haha.. ni nk kuar rm 50 ke 100?"
he asked philip but then was looking at me.
i confused.
philip then took the form n asked me the same question.
"owh.. ni u nk kuar rm50 ke 100?"
i looked at the form.
nilai amount yg nk kuar: rm50
yg ditulis dlm perkataan: satu ratus sahaja
blushing.
so i said sorry for the stupid mistake.
maybe i was on something else mase isi form tu.
so tak concentrate.
nasib baik tulis hundred. bukan 1000.
adeih.
philip smiled n said "it's ok"
then, i said thanks n went off.

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yesterday.

i went to the post office to collect stuff.
i grabbed the yellow paper on my desk.
purse. handset.
then, i went off.
while on the bus, tetibe tringat.
i forgot to bring my matrix card.
damn.
sorry malas nk patah balik.
bwk pun bukannye pakai. just letak inside my pocket.
so i prayed for luck.
alhamdulillah fine.
line clear.
pak guard tak jlnkan operasi.
heheh.
i reached the post office.
sigh. penat.
then beratur r.
unfortunately, satu counter je bukak.
about 15-20 minutes wasting my precious time.
br dpt service.
sy pun gerak ke kaunter with a smiling face.
without looking directly at me.
the worker asked me to read the yellow paper in my hand.
i read it as being told.
rase mcm something wrong je. it said:
"Sila tuntut brg di pejabat asrama pd pukul bla3"
kakak tu ckp "tu la lain kali bace. ni tak bace ni.. bla kuasa 3"
huhu. what the heck.
memalukan. embarassing momment. blushing2!
then sengih balik.
i said sorry, thanks n went off.
feels like the yellow paper was mocking at me!
damn.
buat letih je.

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them.

:asmah:
she's a gud fren.
nice. funny. vulnerable.
help me a lot.
and i can't 4get till today.
cross-over, open, straight-thru, open.
damn.
then she came.
"nickey, meh sini kite tolong watkan!
kite dh wat 4 cable.. meh sini kite tlg!
sian nickey.."
looking deep into her eyes.
i smiled.
"terima kasih asmah! org tatau nape org cuak ni.
tertekan je betulkan wire ni! menggigil.."
hehe.
maybe sbb perli Dr. K.
haa kan dh kene balasan Tuhan.
huhu.
that's me nway.
-gelabah-

:kucai:
he's a gud fren.
nice. funny. simple.
help me a lot too.
sorry kucai for being rude.
about yesterday.
if u don't like d way.
just tell.
really don't mind.

========== copied from kucai's blog ===========

Pedih aku kena sound kat ym ngan niki petang tadi.. inilah ym log

l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:35:56 PM): he he he
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:36:12 PM): batuk la..
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:36:21 PM): ko ada cadangan penjagaan makanan?
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:36:50 PM): makan makanan yg berkhasiat
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:36:50 PM): stop smoking!
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:37:10 PM): go n check ur lungs
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:37:19 PM): adehhhhhhhhh pedih pedih ok ok ok... cek peparu?
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:37:19 PM): tgk brp percent lagi blh idup
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:37:28 PM): hu hu.. ajal di tangan tuhan..
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:37:38 PM): doktor takleh sahkan
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:37:50 PM):
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:37:50 PM): yerla
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:37:50 PM): mmg ajal d tgn tuhan
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:38:13 PM): tapi watpe buat bende yg bwk ajal?
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:38:25 PM): kita manusia pelakon cerita di atas pementasanNya
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:38:42 PM): he he he
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:39:13 PM): makin besar plak font ko..
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:39:25 PM): smoking = wasting ur money, destroy ur beautiful lungs
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:39:25 PM): ok kite pelakon
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:40:03 PM): as pelakon kite kene ikut ckp BIG director (GOD)
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:40:03 PM): so Allah bg lungs
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:40:25 PM): He created a beautiful lungs for human
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:40:56 PM): a ah.. betul .. smoking = wasting ur money, destroy ur beautiful lungs.. aku sedang usaha not wasting my money.. but not be able to keep my beautiful lungs..
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:41:09 PM): anyway.. i try my best
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:41:23 PM): wahh niki.. jangan buat font besa-besa
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:41:25 PM): so that we can use it to breathe
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:41:25 PM): then we must b very thankful to God
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:41:25 PM): so, why must we destroy it?
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:41:36 PM): dah la pedih.. ye ye
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:41:50 PM): which means kite tak membazirkan pemberian Allah
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:41:50 PM): eh silap
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:41:58 PM): baikkk.. aku kalah..
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:42:08 PM): which means kite membazirkan pemberian Allah
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:42:19 PM): then itu menunjukkan kite tak bersyukur
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:42:31 PM): my mistake.. which hakikatnya suma datang dari Allah..
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:42:42 PM): bile dh sakit nanti susah
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:42:50 PM): baikk.. aku setuju
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:43:08 PM): thats my advice to all smokers
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:43:14 PM): niki..tolong kecik kan font...
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:43:18 PM): pedih ni..
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:43:22 PM): silau..
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:43:39 PM): so pls spread among ur frens
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:43:39 PM): hehehe
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:43:39 PM): sekian~
nikirebel (8/22/2006 4:43:39 PM): haha
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:43:56 PM): i never seen somebody's font as big as you in advice on the ym
l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l l-l-l (8/22/2006 4:44:06 PM): wahh berkesan berkesan..

ok niki aku kalah aku kalah ....... :D

========= without his permission ;p =========

:raja:
a man with null.
ermm. i donno.
maybe a gud fren.
kucai's fren.
.ezine.
tq for d invitation.
i appreciate it.
interested to join nway.
working with hustlers.
wooo i bet i'll learn a lot.
insyaAllah.

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here.

in my second blog.
where i channeled my stress. anger.
which i donno where to start.
untitled.
he2.
saje2.

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